When I was younger I thought I was in love at the age of fifteen. I always wanted to be around him and make him happy. I gave my best effort to give my life/time to him. He didn't want it.
One night I was depressed. my close friend said "lets go to a dance" so I did. I ended up having a good time. I wanted to forget all about that boy who I could not please, for the life of me. I got asked out by another boy who seemed to like me. The ride home that night I felt beautiful. I had a boy to call my own and give all my love/attention to.
It's weird cause, the next day the first boy who I wanted to give everything to wanted me. He told me on AIM that he was stupid and finally new what he was missing. I was happy at first, but promised him I would be true/strong to my heart and never want be with him again. he later found out I had a BF and wanted to win me over. A promise is a promise.
I always thought I was a strong women and never needed a man to make me happy. I am just now finding out, maybe I do need one to complete me and feel beautiful. ;/ I have dated four men. It seems that when something bad happens, I go right to another one. I don't even have to like them.. it's like a safety zone. What is wrong with me?
I should be able to be alone.I should be able to take chances. I should be able to leave it I want. It seems I won't and don't know why.
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