Today.. SUCKED.
I tryed to talk to my dad and ask him for his help as much as possible. He didn't really pay much attention to me. I want my dad's and I relationship to get better. We don't even talk to each other. He never says I love you anymore or takes a hug when I give it.
My mom loves hugs and she didn't even want one from me, when she was upset with my sister.
She said "I don't want a hug" in a harsh voice.
Later I sang at an event and that sucked two. I was so nervous that it sounded squeaky and noobish. I have practiced the song perfect everyday. Why did I have to screw up on the night it was preformed?
It has gotten so bad overtime. My emotions just keep building up. I don't know how to control them anymore. I cried for about two hrs straight. I even wrote a will for myself just in case I didn't make it.
No one can understand how much I can hurt, unless you have depression as well. Sometimes you just get sad and don't know why. I hate it. I'm done with this shit. I never asked to have this fuck up in my body.
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