work

today at work was hard. I work with children with special needs. I am use to working with children that have autism.

About 2 months ago I started working with a boy that has adhd,ptsd, depression and physical aggression. When I first met him he seemed like he had nothing wrong with him.

Today, I got to see him full blown. He was hitting his little brother with a lacrosse stick and I asked him to stop and give it to me. he said "No! your not my mom! make me!" I asked him again and he refused. I ended up grabbing it out of his hands. When I told him to go calm his body in his room, he kicked me as hard as he could. He was really mean with his words too.

I don't take shit from kids. I picked him up and pushed him in his room. I closed the door and held it shut. He screamed a lot! I told him what he did was wrong. He could come out whenever he realised what he did was wrong. Time flew by and he started to list things. All I could say was And? And? he finally listed off everything. He finally calmed down.

My day went great with him after that. We build a snow fort and went sledding.

Working with Special needs kids can be a challenge. You need to have Patience and skills. I am going to take a class on how I can deal with the boy I watch just in case he acts out again.

Being who u are!

Most people are afraid of their self image.

• What to wear?
• Omg I would never do that!
• you said that? your a bad person.
• What must people think of me?

I saw a women today that runs and dances on the side of the road! she rocks. She runs down roads everyday dancing it up! I really don't think she cares what people think. If she did I don't think shed be dancing down the roads.

I have heard two different stories about her.

• She got a head injury from falling of a ladder.
• She does it for exercise.

Whatever the case she still rocks! I wish that I could go outside and dance it up! I wish I could wear weird clothes... You know what? I can. Some people just care about their self image.

Lately I just don't give a damn!

The game of the heart

Today I felt as if I was worthless. I got home after work and thought of getting a hold of some friends. I finally did! My heart is braking again.

Am I even worth a text?

Am I even worth a phone call?

Should I even have this heart?

It seems as if this is all bipolar. One day I am the center of the world then the next, I am "space"

I am a good person. I think. I try so hard to help out my loved ones. You'd think they'd want me in their life. ;/ I guess not so much.

She felt it to.

Anne Frank wrote a diary. In one of her entries she wrote about her being 14. She talked about a young boy who she loved. She said he would joke and make fun of her but she still loved him. She didn't know if she was to young to know what love is.

The entries go on and she talks about how one day she wants to marry this boy. She thinks that he will never settle down. She thinks that he does not know how to love or be loved!

W0w! Anne Frank.... Who knew I could relate so much to her. I was in love at the age of 14 too. I also, think of marriage and if the man I love would love me back as much as I love him.

This is sad! It will not end well....

lately it has been building up. My parents and I can not communicate. My dad says that "I can't talk to you, cause I don't want to argue" my mom says "you get to mad" Well mother and father. You are right. It feels the same when I try to talk to you.. except the other way around.

I feel as if when I do something ANYTHING my parents have something negative to say about it. I don't think they will ever see how good I actually am. They say I am not motivated, yet I have a full time job and go to school. They say I never like to be home.. I wonder why? as I say with complete sarcasm.

If my parents and I can not even talk to each other without getting into some kind of a tiff.. Our relationship is doomed. It's over. I will not let them continue to hurt me.

Know who you are. Don't let anyone tell you different.

I should go!

I really want to go on a trip with my close friend. I know he is a guy, but he's a friend. I am 19, almost 20.. And I can't go to North Carolina?

I would really like it if my parents started treating me like an adult. I would be leaving for 4-7 days and staying with his family. His mom will make sure we don't do anything bad. We will be going on a plane "fun"

Ever sense I was younger I couldn't hang with curtain people or go curtain places. I was 17 when I could watch my first pg-13 movie. There are restrictions still on everything I do.

I think that it would be good for me to get out of my home town. I really want to go on a trip ANYWHERE! I am so willing to put some cash towards this trip. Should I stay or should I go?

Being a girl

When a girl gets her monthly.. Also, known as period, aunt flow, and the red. She is in pain. We get cramps and sometimes we get moody. Some girls crave chocolate.

No matter what a guy says about a girls period, he will never know how it feels. One guy told me it much feel like the shit cramps lol. It feels like someone is stabbing you in the gut. Some girls get bloated. ewww.

When I am on my period I do not get moody. I am the nicest girl you will ever meet. I get really emotional though ;/ I would have to say my period is low maintenance.

One of my favorite people in the world took good care of me onetime when I had bad cramps. we were hanging out and I felt sick and wanted to leave. They wouldn't let me. "what can I do to make you stay" they said. I told them that I needed a heating pad,meds, and a place to lay down. They were so sweet! They made sure I had all the things I asked for.

I am really glad that people want me to hangout with them even if I am on my period. I am so glad that one of my fave people in the world wanted to take care of me and stay longer.