I had this feeling that maybe it could be different this time.. Some of my loved ones did do. My best friend Called me in shock! She saw something about you and she was pissed. She didn't want to tell me right away but she's a true friend. I felt broken.... I thought things were different this time around.
I've been hurt by tons of stupid people. It's my fault I guess for keep giving them chances. People can say they change and then show it for a bit, but can they? I've asked myself this a lot.
I was happy. I haven't said that in awhile. I mean really happy. My best friend even said I was smiling and had joy on the phone. After being hurt I was unhappy I smashed up wood in the back yard with an axe and I cryed until my makeup ran down my face. I went shopping to get my mind of my pain. I didn't even buy anything.
I woke up today and noticed I'm crazy! I am crazy for believing that people can change. Especially people who have hurt me in the past.. It is a pattern. It's done. I am a good person and I need to be happy again. I will no longer have a healed than bruised heart.
I<3 myself a little more than I thought.
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