W0w

I have not wrote on my blog in a long time. I have just had so much on my mind that I could not organize it out.

• My family
• My love life
• Work
• School
• Money.. Sucks
• Friends
• Past
• Present
• Future

That kind of crazy stuff a young adult should not always have on her mind.

One thing that I read yesterday on FB was the guy I use to like is know single. I hate this dude know. I use to love him with all my heart. I'd do anything for him. He's just shit on me and tool with my heart.

I know that my heart turns towards him all the time. I know that I give to many chances and get beat for it in the end. I need the strength to not get pulled into this heart brake again.

Lord give me strength. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.

I know I can not change my past, but I can change how people hurt me. It is me who lets people hurt me. I let them. I am the reason for my own pain. Not anymore :D

fire!

It's amazing how something can be good and bad at the same time.

Fire is one of them. I love fire. you can say I am kinda a piro. I like that it is warm and peaceful. It's good in this way for me but fire can also hurt and destroy. My best friend just recently lost a loved one because of third degree burns to his body.

I was shocked! I wanted to be there for my best friend. Have you ever been burned? ouch! I can't even began to imagine what her loved one went through. In the last week I have burned my hand on a pan and the exhaust on my dirt bike.. Oh yeah it hurts.

Another good thing that could be good or bad is love. Are you really in love? Are you in lust? How should I know! Love is kinda like fire it can be a warm relaxing sensation, but when you get to close and your "lover" hurts you then you are burned for life.

Burns hurt, scars still remaine.