Sometimes it's good to get away

I don't know what it if lately. I've got a lot on my mind things like

• you
• my family
• me
• why people hurt me like they do
• why I hurt people like I do

When I think about you I think about how much I love you and how happy you make me. It hurts sometimes though cause you don't know what to say or express yourself to me. I know you love me I think your kinda scared that what we have must be true love. I am so sorry that you've been hurt by others. I will never hurt you. I want to be with you all my life. I know I am young to be saying this, but I LOVE you and never felt so strong about anyone.

Right now at home it is so stressful. I come home and there's about 7 cars on the lawn/driveway. I walk threw the door and see a mess and hear a screaming child. She is not mine so I don't have to take care of her, but in some ways I do.. She wants good attention and not bad. She wants to know she has rules. She wants to be loved. It is so hard when there is so many people around who don't understand you and think your always sad. I am not always sad. Most days I am happy and glad I am living. It's just hard sometimes at home to express myself.

When I think about me I always think about how I can change to make others happy. I would love to be perfect for people all the time I just can't. I have realized this fact, that I'm not perfect and never will be. I guess I am happy with most of who I am.

These are just somethings that have been on my mind. In order to clear my mind I just take a drive and see where I end up. Today i went around town after dropping my best friend off. It helped!

Anyways there are ways to deal with stuff. I take drives what do you do?